Being visible while still hiding
Visibility and vulnerability. Two V’s, a marriage made….I’m not going to finish that sentence, but you know what I mean. Visibility has never been easier, and yet it’s ohhh so much more difficult. I have always chosen to stay in the background. To stay small and out of sight. I’m not one for being noticed. Being noticed is to be judged. Opening the possibility of rejection. Like the rabbit stepping out of the brush into the meadow, exposed to attack. I have trained my energy for smallness. For protection. To be unseen. It has served me well for a long time. It got me to where I was about 5 years ago. Fully integrated into the system, progressing, doing things I was programmed for, I was hiding in the brush. Then the brush felt suffocating, like I didn’t fit in it anymore. I wanted to freedom of the meadow. I wanted to expand past safety and dance with the unknown. I recognise now that the unknown, is the liminal space between the old and the new. The present and the future. The now and what is to come. It’s the space of all potential, of creative possibilities.
I have hidden my true self all of my life. I have chosen a mask that kept me safe, kept me acceptable to others. Something happened in 2020 though. Well, the world stopped didn’t it? When it stopped, it was like the worlds mask fell slightly and I started to see things. I couldn’t make ANY sense of them at the time, but I knew things were forever changed, I wouldn’t ever be the same. It felt wrong somewhere in my body. As time went on, and I looked more and more beyond the mask I couldn’t unknow what I had learned. My mask no longer fit, and it felt like a burden to carry. I came exploding out from behind it in 2023. Letting more parts of myself be seen for the first time. Allowing, the healer, the seer, the witch, the mother, the midwife, parts of me to be seen as one complete person for the first time. Me.
I have been waiting all my life to be accepted. To be chosen. To have someone notice me and create space for me on this planet. To give me permission to be seen and heard. It doesn’t work that way. If you want to be seen, you have to take up space. If you want to be heard, you have to send out your message. You can’t give your voice to someone else to hold, it is your frequency to transmit. And there is no other transmission on this planet like yours.
Stop waiting to be invited, invite yourself.
Stop waiting to be noticed, notice yourself.
It is your responsibility in this life to take up the space that you were given. Your space on this planet is your birth right.
So take it.
Step out into the meadow, now is your chance, dance there under the starlit sky, dance with the unknown. It’s where dreams are created. It’s where ideas are born. And know, that whatever happens, there is a reason, a lesson there. So, dance with it, and let the universe know, you aren’t waiting anymore.
Who/what are you waiting for?